Wednesday, January 21, 2015

The Age of Aquarius

When the moon is in the Seventh House
 and Jupiter aligns with Mars, then peace will guide the planets….
and love will steer the stars
! This is the dawning of the Age of Aquarius.

The lyrics of this 1969 song by the 5th Dimension are based on the belief that the world would soon be entering an Age of Aquarius, an age of love, light, and humanity. The song is mostly associated with the hippies of the 1960s and ’70s—but I am finding that the lyrics of this song are so applicable in the world we are living in … especially as we enter the new Aquarius moon today.
Crazy that I will admit this to all of you, but here goes! I often listen to show tunes such as “Hair” when I write executive presentations and internal documents (don’t ask… it just seems to work for me) and I seem to be doing a lot of writing lately. This song came on my Pandora, and it got me thinking that we are totally entering this new age… this Age of Aquarius. Don't you think? Can't you feel it? 
I started to research what this "Age" meant, and it turns out there is a ton being written on this topic at this point in time. There is definitely a reason why too. We see it in the news and we are feeling a vibration of some sort. A clear cellular shift of our collective consciousness.
People are protesting hate; walking to support love; we are accepting that love doesn’t have colors or genders or boundaries. The arrival of the Aquarian age is 100% associated with…well, harmony and understanding, sympathy and trust abounding. 
All free and independent thinkers should be excited about the New Aquarian Age where wisdom will blossom and there will be a new importance on self development, self transformation, self realization and self actualization. Personal transformation will help us lead an overall evolution – allowing us to essentially “pay it forward.”
This New Age or shift is especially clear when I talk to my children and I listen to how they are concerned about the planet, animals, and other people. These kids are the embodiment of our potential and are our guides. They are all about service and love. They are here to teach and to give. They are happy, delightful, forgiving and light-workers. They have a warrior spirit, because they want to squash down old systems that no longer serve us. They question and want to change government, educational and legal systems that lack integrity. And, they have the fiery determination to drive this change. If this is where our humanity is headed—I am thumbing a ride.
The Age of Aquarius is regarded as a spiritual turning point – for society, and each and every individual. There is so much speculation about the beginning of the Aquarius era. In reading about it, many think it has started, some say that it coincides with the Mayan calendar and that the “end of the world” that was meant to occur in 2012 actually ushered in the new age, and ended an old one.  
And now, we are about to enter the second zodiac sign of the 2015 New Year— Aquarius! I don’t know about you… but I am giddy this year. I can feel the vibration of change.
Quite simply – we can all be the change that the Age of Aquarius song sings about. Bring about peace that will guide the planets…and deliver love that will steer the stars.
Peace out!






Sunday, January 4, 2015

Let Go of 2014 and Embrace 2015


Took me a few days to process and to assess the year… but 2014 was a year of letting go gracefully. (As Liam would say, "letting go of the grass," as Elsa would repeatedly sing “Let it go”) and, really, just rising up to see where I actually end up!

Letting go of so many things that were in my comfort zone, or that I had been holding on to for reasons that I had to address, was a huge theme last year.

There were the physical things that I let go of… like our apartment  --333 East 92nd Street.  Selling the coop was a big let go! We had bought that place thinking we could raise a family there. Owen was born there, and it was there that Liam became a big brother. We renovated and put our fingerprints all over the little abode. But instead, it ended up being a place where negative energy thrived. It had to go… we had to let go… and finally we got the chance. It sold on Aug. 28.

We let go of the little daycare/preschool—Pre-school of America that supported our family for so long. We had been in that school since the boys were young and I made the decision to pull Owen out and put him into a new UPK school across the street from our house that was free. Many would think that was an easy decision, but to stray from the school we knew and were comfortable with, was a big move for all of us.

My four-year old let go of his pacifier… and I had to accept that too. He let go of the stroller and being called "my baby boy."

We also bought a new car, letting go of our old one! We let go of old traditions, staying in NYC for Christmas Eve and making our own memories.

We let go of old friends who were toxic, and made room for new ones. I let go of the idea that not everyone has to like me, or that I have to like them. (I am still trying to let go of that critical voice though!) 

We let go of Paul’s job at Automotive High School, where he had been teaching for nearly 15 years. We are now letting go to his career in teaching and possibly the end to our carefree summers in NH. (Let's hope not!) We let go of a dream to move to NH permenantly and rent a house on the NH seacoast—giving our boys a place to grow, more room to move and a yard to run.

I let go of clients who didn’t provide me with the stimulation or the support that I needed as an entrepreneur.

I moved on from feelings of negativity from family members who hurt me – intentionally and unintentionally.  That was hard, because there is a lot of love behind the hurt. But it brought about good change, and clarity of our relationships.

I let go of the dream to be a mom again at 43, and to grow another life -- probably the most painful of all this year. The baby that will never be, the soul that will never reach me in this lifetime, that tries to keep coming and being taken away for reasons I will never understand. This was the saddest “letting go” of the year. I had surgery to officially say goodbye to this baby who had lived for three months, and I hope someday I will understand why.

I let go of things like furniture, baby toys, a baby crib, baby clothes, random things in storage.  I let go of trying to be in control of everything. I let go of things that are other people’s issues.  I let go of holding on to guilt about my finances, not having a will or a 529 plan or having life insurance… and I went out and got them.

I let go of possibly never being a size 2 again, and that having two kids has made me a size 6… and that is OK.  I have let go of not being able to run every day, or go to the gym, and that being with my children is equally rewarding. I let go of being in other people’s drama, including those that I love and live with.


Maybe it was the year, maybe it was the Frozen theme song of 2014. But 2014 was certainly the year of letting go in so many ways. I hope 2015 will be a year of embracing. Because I feel like I have purged quite a bit already—and wonder what else there really is to let go.